THE LONE TREE

Do you know this wallpaper is called as 'The Lone Tree?'

This is my laptop wallpaper for years, since my Degree days. 

Haven't change it until now.

I used to think that I am alone. My fight isn't worth anyone time and I am frequently think that I am lonely. I refuse to accept the fact that I am alone, I have a lot of friends and support system. I don't share to anyone wth is going on, I used to rant on twitter (opps) and let people do their usual wild guess. These days, I stopped doing that. I stop rant on twitter and I stop posting anything on my IG Stories. Instead, I post a lot of songs and motivational quotes, for me and to all people that need it. I personally think those rant didn't help me at all. And there are some people who probably just say 'padan muka' to me. (ha, me and my wild assumption lol)

I do rant, sometimes.

On my whatsapp status (can't avoid it tho, but that's stupid I knw.)

But, little did I know. I always get unexpected messages from someone (that I never expect at all). Last few days was hard for me. I can barely sleep. I felt like my laugh are forced. I listen to all depressed songs just to make myself feel better. Then, someone from my high school send me some motivational quotes and those simple things, it made my days. For years of being like this, unexpected people with their kind words always there during my worst moments. Thank you, I appreciate it the most. I really appreciate it the most :(

To anyone who has been through some hell, cheer up. Those cloudy days will gone and sun shall rise. Brightly. I don't know when, but it will. Because if it is not happy ending, then it is not an ending at all. You are loved and important. (Sambil tepuk bahu sendiri)

I really hope whenever I felt tired with life, I go back and read this entry.

To remind me how much of I wanted to remain alive.

'are you brave enough to swim against the time?'

HELLO (?)

Urm, hi guys. I don't even know if there are any pieces of human that would be loyal to blogger. I mean, who use blogspot anymore, kan(?) But hey, happy 11th years anniversary of this blog, you are forever loved. Should've make a comeback last year, konon jubli timah lew. A year late, but then I'm back to tell each and every one of you that I survive 2016! (and I'm still alive lol)

I always thought that 'when will I can write back, with confident and lot of positive vibes', but these few years has been a little bit tough for me. And most importantly, I grow up! with a package of 'let's just don't trust anyone' hahahaha. Back to my nag, long story short ; I am now 25 years old ! (with 16 years old mentality lol), I finally finished my degree, I stop thinking about getting master (lol) and I turns to be wanita berkerjaya ;')

Two paragraphs. It takes almost an hour..

11 years back, this two paragraphs only take 10 minutes..

There you go, my graduation photo together with Syida and Lena! *which is sooooo yesterday! Tbh, I feel like I need to post all my important pictures here, so that I can see and appreciate those moments, once I come back later (Because, yknw. Aqilah never keep picture. She snap it, she edit it, she keep it at gallery and once the storage is full, she delete everything. hahaha) Dedua pregnant masa ni. But hey, that was a year ago, now I am the godmader of Aariz & Ayra! Ibu Qilah love you both.

Pre-convo. We freaking do this at Pavilion. Penuh konfiden dengan jubah hijau daun pisang komot sana sini lol . Together with brainless. We used to call ourselves, gadis. (it does sound wrong, when we are nothing near gadis at all) .How we came out with 'brainless?', the day went we nearly gave up with exams and Kak Long (who always get dean lists in exams) suddenly said 'bodoh pun tak apa lah, malas nak study'. The rest are history..

Our friendship kind of unique. We were coursemates. But never really get along well and me being me, I don't really want to be friend with anyone back then other than Azrin. Then Kak Long suddenly sat beside Azrin in class, Azrin make friends with Aina who is friend with Hanis, Pikah & Zira. Then we need to form a group of 6 in TITAS, Aina tak masuk kelas ni, but then hahahahahaha the rest you should know where this story led..

To my precious seven, work hard.

Stay happy wherever you are.