THE LONE TREE
Do you know this wallpaper is called as 'The Lone Tree?'
This is my laptop wallpaper for years, since my Degree days.
Haven't change it until now.
I used to think that I am alone. My fight isn't worth anyone time and I am frequently think that I am lonely. I refuse to accept the fact that I am alone, I have a lot of friends and support system. I don't share to anyone wth is going on, I used to rant on twitter (opps) and let people do their usual wild guess. These days, I stopped doing that. I stop rant on twitter and I stop posting anything on my IG Stories. Instead, I post a lot of songs and motivational quotes, for me and to all people that need it. I personally think those rant didn't help me at all. And there are some people who probably just say 'padan muka' to me. (ha, me and my wild assumption lol)
I do rant, sometimes.
On my whatsapp status (can't avoid it tho, but that's stupid I knw.)
But, little did I know. I always get unexpected messages from someone (that I never expect at all). Last few days was hard for me. I can barely sleep. I felt like my laugh are forced. I listen to all depressed songs just to make myself feel better. Then, someone from my high school send me some motivational quotes and those simple things, it made my days. For years of being like this, unexpected people with their kind words always there during my worst moments. Thank you, I appreciate it the most. I really appreciate it the most :(
To anyone who has been through some hell, cheer up. Those cloudy days will gone and sun shall rise. Brightly. I don't know when, but it will. Because if it is not happy ending, then it is not an ending at all. You are loved and important. (Sambil tepuk bahu sendiri)
I really hope whenever I felt tired with life, I go back and read this entry.
To remind me how much of I wanted to remain alive.
'are you brave enough to swim against the time?'